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sorry about the lack of comment but it just irks me that they leave the word "comment" plural when there is only 1.

merry christmas.

i'm a married mommy now.

so now i can just put it to you straight. i got married and had a baby.

:our family

and Tyler.

the grass is finally green.

you can no longer call me the breadwinner. goodbye panera. hello real world, salary, benefits, pretty skirts, and 9-5 employment. 

sometimes i  really wish i knew no one else read this so i could just write notes to you telling you what is going on. i know you wouldn't judge. you'd be shocked, but not as opinionated about my life and goings-on as quite so many others are. 

and so to those others, though i write in vain, i ask: please stop talking about me. i am quite human, with both ears and feelings-to hear and to hurt. 

on a much lighter note, my friend just bought a new computer and i get to help him set it up and navigate around tonight. it kind of feels like Christmas when you get to play with new technology. opening the box, getting tangled in all the cords, trying to figure out how everything works. by far one of my favorite things. 

todo list:

message board post for class

shower

pay rent

play with the new computer

not waste a friday night

i still refuse to put the screen on my window. 

i hope it storms.

It looks like it's going to rain very soon. And I have a wedding shower to attend. Irony? I think not. 

I took the screen off my window because I do not like screens. I get a lecture every once in a while from my roommate about all the bugs that are coming in through my screen-less window. I just think I like bugs more than screens.

 I went to a sideyard cookout last night with some friends. Friends who know I don’t eat meat. Friends who insist on making it a big deal anytime I consume vegetarian food in front of them. It’s just a boca burger. It’s made with vegetables and soy, not grass or dog food. Please leave the minority alone.

I have more weddings to attend than finals. So this is what it's like to be a college senior? 

I keep thinking about my grandma. 

and this is who i miss more than anything. 

 

I took my life apart all at once and misplaced some of the pieces. But I’m looking for them in my mess of packing and moving.  

b is for

i'm pretty sure i am a different person now. 

lie down.

lost a lot of sleep. 

finished my verbatim, passed a test, and added to discussion about the case study. 

called. 

went for a run. 

deposited a check. 

let you drive me home. 

showered, shaved, and took the paint off my nails. 

listened and sang. 

made dinner and read. 

i am at a loss. 

i forgot how to spend a night off. 

i am really trying. 

beyond this noise, beyond those cars. beyond this door, beyond this heart. beyond those trees, beyond this comfort

let us have eyes that we may see, Lord. 

bad day.