lie down.

lost a lot of sleep. 

finished my verbatim, passed a test, and added to discussion about the case study. 

called. 

went for a run. 

deposited a check. 

let you drive me home. 

showered, shaved, and took the paint off my nails. 

listened and sang. 

made dinner and read. 

i am at a loss. 

i forgot how to spend a night off. 

i am really trying. 

beyond this noise, beyond those cars. beyond this door, beyond this heart. beyond those trees, beyond this comfort

let us have eyes that we may see, Lord. 

bad day.

my God, my God. 

I was unshaken, I was unbroken with resistance. 

I wanted a new set of rules to follow, principles and regulations. 

yet, You knew I could not find beauty in the law. 

I could not find purity and love in limitations and sacrifices outside myself. 

for You taught me of my freedom, from righteousness and life.

my freedom from holiness, redemption, and forgiveness. 

and the new law You imparted is not one I easily comprehend. 

so I cease my resisting and answer in my listening. 

Lord, beyond my understanding, bind my wandering heart to Thee. 

pros.

my roommates informed me tonight that pregnancy in my situation would lead to tax credits and financial aid. 

really all i want to do is move.